As of last week, I’m planting thatchurchinaustin bivocationally. I’m working at Gold’s Gym in Bee Cave as we move toward God launching a new church in south Austin. This has really been an interesting process, and I must admit that I’m not very good at this.
I stink at having divided attention. I am, by nature, very focused and driven. Once I set my mind to something it consumes me. When God called me to plant a church, I studied church planting non-stop for months before reading anything outside church planting / pastoring.
Needless to say, that has given me great opportunity to learn and discover, but now that I am working another full-time position (one that wakes me at 3am no less!) I find it difficult to be single-minded. It seems that when I sit to focus on the church’s progress, I’m physically tired or distracted by my kids who need their daddy’s attention too.
Somewhere in all of this, God has a plan. I am being reassured more and more that God’s hand is in this. My daily devotions have me reading in Jeremiah lately and God has been reassuring me through his word.
I ran into difficulties and asked God whether or not he has really called me to do this difficult work of planting a new church. He answered me with: They’ll fight you, but they won’t even scratch you. I’ll back you up every inch of the way.” God’s Decree. Jeremiah 1:19 (MSG)
I struggled with doubt as to whether anyone would hear me. What would I say that affected people’s hearts and helped them encounter Christ. He answered me with: Watch now! I’m putting my words as fire in your mouth. And the people are a pile of kindling ready to go up in flames. Jeremiah 5:14 (MSG)
I was struggling with what I would preach on during our first services. I was arguing (with myself no less) whether to take the first year and preach “nice” before cutting God’s Word loose and speaking with the full zeal and passion that his Word has stirred in me. His response was: Let your words change them. Don’t change your words to suit them. Jeremiah 15:19 (MSG)
It may seem that I’m whining about doing this bivocationally, but I can’t say that I’m surprised since I’m reading the “weeping prophet.” Regardless, God has spoken and continued to speak in very clear and powerful ways in my daily moments with him.
What has God spoken to you lately?